sometimes I am just so dumb!

[quietann]

This is in reference to the whole thing I mentioned about an LJ community.

I fell into the net again as a way to avoid doing what I needed to do. And I did a lot of stupid things, a LOT of really stupid things, and it took me over a week to "get it."

This has happened before. It happened on elbows, and on my high school list, and way back in the bad old days, on USENET. It always happens when I am really busy or pressured. I hate it, and I hate the discomfort it causes others.

I am such a fuck-up. I try hard not to be, but I make the same stupid mistakes over and over.

Comments

[kimberlogic.livejournal.com]

*hug*

I'm really behind on LJ so I'm not sure what you are referring to but the "fucking, trying hard not to be" but feeling like you repeat yourself ... well, hey, that's how I feel. So big hugs to you and lots of empathy.

*hugs*

Hang in there ...

[kkpixie.livejournal.com]

If it makes you feel better, I seem to do the same thing except it usually people and not the internet I get wrapped up in. I have papers or a job or other commitments I should be focusing on, and instead I spend all my time mooning over someone. At the very least I know gave up one really good job because I wanted more time with my honey, and another time I forgot to pick my sister up from camp and got in HUGE trouble, and I *still* find myslf wishing I had more good sense than hormones...

*hug* You are not a fuck-up any more than I am, and as I am trying to have more self esteem and think better of myself, that means neither of us are fuck-ups. We're human.

[batwrangler.livejournal.com]

Does it help at all to know that I think you are wonderful and am enormously grateful to know you? And you are kind to displaced rats, so you're obviously not all bad.

[quietann.livejournal.com]

Thanks :)

And I am kidn to displaced rats even when they bite me (It was my fault, but, OW!)