Have mostly not been here and so much to write
Oct. 1st, 2025 06:32 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
vvalkyriBut right now I really should at least attempt to get back to sleep. Sleeping is not happening tonight.
I just realized I had suggested finding water for tashlich back at Rosh Hashanah and Cousins and I went for a walk and did not and the time flew by and maybe I can somehow manage today.
The 10 days between the high holidays ended up so incredibly full that they've been anything other than introspective.
And I don't know when I'm going to be able to write.
. Today is going to be just as full, and I'm realizing I'm not going to have time to go home before going to synagogue tonight wherever I'll end up. I suppose I'm still technically a member of agudas. Maybe? But I certainly didn't reserve space. So I'll get together with other cousin I guess before the fast and I guess we'll go to fabrangan.
Everything is such a mess.
In the world, in the country, in my life.
I've been overly irritated in a few directions
I keep living in regrets. Relatedly, Thunderbolts was really good and I enjoyed it. Created a spoilery group on facebook.
I'm dictating because it's the phone and I can't be bothered to go look for a keyboard.
I'm afraid I've missed most of what anyone might have been saying - at this point it's mostly Facebook and signal, so very many freaking signal groups.
I was out in Cleveland for Rosh Hashanah, with both the Cleveland cousins and my Cleveland uncle and Aunt and it was pretty good if short
And I have stuff to return to free - she was nice enough to lend me a molecular covid test so I could feel less paranoid about 92-year-old uncle.
Because mobility issues we tuned into Park avenue synagogue, and it was actually really nice, five of us in the room felt more than communal enough.
Wednesday night I went to the ninja gym and then on to Pittsburgh, and stayed in Pittsburgh with Jim and visited with Charlotte and then briefly with Diane and then got home pretty late. And then the next day joined Sam for NPR tiny desk concert (am finishing InHumana from the prepublication giveaway shelf).
And then activist happy hour which was a time to interact with the folks I've been working with in person and that went pretty late and then home and then up to Ken's and then Saturday to fair and then the two of us stopped off at a burner party complete with hot tub and got home stupid stupid late and then Sunday to Acro and then back for dinner and a walk and a tripping and scraping my knee and eventually watching Thunderbolts starting at midnight
And yesterday a dentist appointment and eventually evening with Joe
And today mammography all the way out in Germantown which meant I got to see Andrian at a really dangerous French bakery, and FreeDC tabling intro on the way to Acro and Acro til 930 and then never managed to be sleepy or at least not to sleep well.
And then yom Kippur starts tonight.
I have appointments tomorrow and several different places, so no I won't be up on Capitol Hill at quarter to noon when both Maryland senators are calling for a press conference and asking feds to join
One thing I don't think is getting out very well about shutdown fight is that any continuing resolution continuing all the horrible from the BBB before. These demands are not new spending but restored spending.
Somewhat relatedly, I suppose, the pediatric brain cancer research program just ended.
Every so often I stop in thinking simply cannot believe we are in this timeline.
And I still haven't actually written a high holidays post
I suppose for placeholder, I do still attempt to be kind. I do still attempt to be good. And I probably suck at all of that, and if I've been hurtful, it's unusual for that to have been on purpose, which in fact in some ways makes it worse I do understand.
(I am currently finding one person on Facebook terribly irritating. He's a good friend of a friend, and I do not know him, and he is quite often irritating, but in that way where one knows he's not trying to be annoying, he's just succeeding)
I suppose if I were being good and kind and nice I wouldn't have volunteered to him that I was finding him irritating. I have not historically told him so.
I just realized I had suggested finding water for tashlich back at Rosh Hashanah and Cousins and I went for a walk and did not and the time flew by and maybe I can somehow manage today.
The 10 days between the high holidays ended up so incredibly full that they've been anything other than introspective.
And I don't know when I'm going to be able to write.
. Today is going to be just as full, and I'm realizing I'm not going to have time to go home before going to synagogue tonight wherever I'll end up. I suppose I'm still technically a member of agudas. Maybe? But I certainly didn't reserve space. So I'll get together with other cousin I guess before the fast and I guess we'll go to fabrangan.
Everything is such a mess.
In the world, in the country, in my life.
I've been overly irritated in a few directions
I keep living in regrets. Relatedly, Thunderbolts was really good and I enjoyed it. Created a spoilery group on facebook.
I'm dictating because it's the phone and I can't be bothered to go look for a keyboard.
I'm afraid I've missed most of what anyone might have been saying - at this point it's mostly Facebook and signal, so very many freaking signal groups.
I was out in Cleveland for Rosh Hashanah, with both the Cleveland cousins and my Cleveland uncle and Aunt and it was pretty good if short
And I have stuff to return to free - she was nice enough to lend me a molecular covid test so I could feel less paranoid about 92-year-old uncle.
Because mobility issues we tuned into Park avenue synagogue, and it was actually really nice, five of us in the room felt more than communal enough.
Wednesday night I went to the ninja gym and then on to Pittsburgh, and stayed in Pittsburgh with Jim and visited with Charlotte and then briefly with Diane and then got home pretty late. And then the next day joined Sam for NPR tiny desk concert (am finishing InHumana from the prepublication giveaway shelf).
And then activist happy hour which was a time to interact with the folks I've been working with in person and that went pretty late and then home and then up to Ken's and then Saturday to fair and then the two of us stopped off at a burner party complete with hot tub and got home stupid stupid late and then Sunday to Acro and then back for dinner and a walk and a tripping and scraping my knee and eventually watching Thunderbolts starting at midnight
And yesterday a dentist appointment and eventually evening with Joe
And today mammography all the way out in Germantown which meant I got to see Andrian at a really dangerous French bakery, and FreeDC tabling intro on the way to Acro and Acro til 930 and then never managed to be sleepy or at least not to sleep well.
And then yom Kippur starts tonight.
I have appointments tomorrow and several different places, so no I won't be up on Capitol Hill at quarter to noon when both Maryland senators are calling for a press conference and asking feds to join
One thing I don't think is getting out very well about shutdown fight is that any continuing resolution continuing all the horrible from the BBB before. These demands are not new spending but restored spending.
Somewhat relatedly, I suppose, the pediatric brain cancer research program just ended.
Every so often I stop in thinking simply cannot believe we are in this timeline.
And I still haven't actually written a high holidays post
I suppose for placeholder, I do still attempt to be kind. I do still attempt to be good. And I probably suck at all of that, and if I've been hurtful, it's unusual for that to have been on purpose, which in fact in some ways makes it worse I do understand.
(I am currently finding one person on Facebook terribly irritating. He's a good friend of a friend, and I do not know him, and he is quite often irritating, but in that way where one knows he's not trying to be annoying, he's just succeeding)
I suppose if I were being good and kind and nice I wouldn't have volunteered to him that I was finding him irritating. I have not historically told him so.
Insane dream
Sep. 29th, 2025 07:39 amcz_unitWas in NY picking up taxes for the Relay Improvement Association with Carolyn Green and my brother. It was insane, C was driving an old Toyota 500 mini truck, we got the stuff and had to drive home. Jeff got yelled at by a homeless person and I had to get him in the car and talk down the homeless guy. Then we drove past a train museum and I wanted to go in but could not due to no time. Then we got lost and drove into a building and down to a sub basement with all sorts of acrane altar stuff like a Masonic vault. Then I walked back to figure out the way out but my cell phone kept losing signal and I had to go back and forth to get us out. Then Carolyn was gone and I had to hot wire the truck to drive it out and...
What an insanely busy dream. Nothing but setbacks, nothing but stress all to meet a deadline that was completely arbitrary. I have no idea what the fuck was going on other than I feel that the days are going by and I am neither prepared nor do I know really where I am going.
UGH! Ok, it is Monday, it rained last night, everything is wet, and there are a bunch of things to do. Yes, taxes. Yes crazy. Yes lots to accomplish. I will be ok.....
What an insanely busy dream. Nothing but setbacks, nothing but stress all to meet a deadline that was completely arbitrary. I have no idea what the fuck was going on other than I feel that the days are going by and I am neither prepared nor do I know really where I am going.
UGH! Ok, it is Monday, it rained last night, everything is wet, and there are a bunch of things to do. Yes, taxes. Yes crazy. Yes lots to accomplish. I will be ok.....
Quick happy Rosh Hashanah
Sep. 23rd, 2025 09:02 amvvalkyriI've got to finish getting dressed and run downstairs because Park Street Shul in New York starts at 8:30!
So Torah service is soon.
Of interest to some:
Btw park st shul has conservative book electronically to 'rent' for $3 https://www.rabookstore.org/products/mahzor-lev-shalem-rosh-hashanah-yom-kippur-ebook
So Torah service is soon.
Of interest to some:
Btw park st shul has conservative book electronically to 'rent' for $3 https://www.rabookstore.org/products/mahzor-lev-shalem-rosh-hashanah-yom-kippur-ebook
Guarded good news
Sep. 22nd, 2025 09:30 amdrglam My boss has pulled off a miracle, and found some funding. My job (and FlyBase) is safe for the next year.
We're still waiting to find out whether the grant is reinstated. Our Cambridge UK site (also safe for a year) will have to do some scrambling, as current government policies have cut off international funding for grants.
We've lost a lot of people at Harvard; a retired curator who was doing a few hours a week, our New Mexico curator, and one of our sysadmins were let go at the end of August (plus we'd laid off the senior curator and senior developer just before the current nightmare). Our project manager was let go by Harvard a couple of weeks ago. The other remaining curator and one of our two developers are leaving in mid-October, as they are feeling too burned out and traumatized to keep going, so they've accepted layoff. We're left with one curator (me), one developer, and one (.6 FTE) sysadmin.
Cambridge and Indiana aren't (yet) losing people. There's three full-time developers at IU, and a lot of curators (no devs) at Cambridge, half of whom were not funded under the main FlyBase grant.
We're still waiting to find out whether the grant is reinstated. Our Cambridge UK site (also safe for a year) will have to do some scrambling, as current government policies have cut off international funding for grants.
We've lost a lot of people at Harvard; a retired curator who was doing a few hours a week, our New Mexico curator, and one of our sysadmins were let go at the end of August (plus we'd laid off the senior curator and senior developer just before the current nightmare). Our project manager was let go by Harvard a couple of weeks ago. The other remaining curator and one of our two developers are leaving in mid-October, as they are feeling too burned out and traumatized to keep going, so they've accepted layoff. We're left with one curator (me), one developer, and one (.6 FTE) sysadmin.
Cambridge and Indiana aren't (yet) losing people. There's three full-time developers at IU, and a lot of curators (no devs) at Cambridge, half of whom were not funded under the main FlyBase grant.