"I am not WORTHY"

[quietann]

So... I got up this morning and dragged myself into school to get the Mad Argentinian to sign the form so I can drop her class. We'd agreed to meet, but she was with one of the "good" students helping him prep for the exam (which started at 10:30). This is the same professor who told me she wouldn't ever have time to help *me*. I waited, and waited, and.... finally, the student left, and I snuck in to get her signature, and she was all mad at me because I didn't bring a pen, and because she needed to get to the exam. Basically she signed the form and threw me out of her office.

I wish I could go back to any student of mine that I ever treated badly because they weren't doing well my class, and apologize to them. I know I am guilty of this (wouldn't most professors rather spend time with students who are doing well?)... I would offer an even bigger apology to any student who failed my class because they didn't believe I'd help them (very few of those; the few students I ever flunked had screwed up in ways I couldn't do anything about, like cheating, and especially lying to me about cheating.)

I have to say, though, that my department chair has been great in mediating between the Mad Argentinian and me, and also in finding a way for me to be able to graduate on time. Even if it was a terrible mistake to admit me to this program, he knows that I really was just here to learn, and he's done as much as he can to be sure that happens.

Illness update: I am still sick, but better each day. My voice is still gone, but it no longer hurts to talk. The coughing fits are still painful, but decreasing in frequency, and my back doesn't hurt from coughing anymore. My plan for the rest of the day is to do a few errands and then go home and sleep.

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[browngirl.livejournal.com]

I think you could use a hug.

*big hug*

A.